unpurposed

a flaming dr pepper does not taste like a dr pepper at all! a friend showed me a video of an alcoholic drink called a flaming dr pepper. you take a shot glass and fill 2/3 with amaretto. the rest of the shot glass is 151 proof bacardi rum. (apparently the highest alcohol percentage you can buy in california.) it's carefully poured in so there is two layers. since the top layer of 151 proof has so much alcohol, it burns quite easily. (the cap is a flame arrester also. i used a lighter over the fumes and it lit on fire.) great. anyway, you light the shot glass on fire. then drop it in a half glass of beer and drink it all. it's supposed to taste like dr pepper. well. IT DOESN'T! I AM SO DISAPPOINTED. i spent so much money to try this experiment and i get a kind of almond flavored drink that makes me feel heavy and unable to think! (and i have to pee a lot too.) ugh. i also tried to blow fire with the bacardi 151. i got a small fireball thing, but i guess i didn't blow hard enough so maybe the flame ran back into my mouth. it burned. maybe that was the alcohol. i don't really know. anyway, i watched kick ass while i tried to detox.

it's pretty cool. i like the movie. it was pretty funny, but that might have been some of the alcohol. it was a nice super hero movie, i guess.

...and i don't really know what else to say. there were a lot of pauses to go to the bathroom. enjoyable. and i can't think. like i said. ugh. i don't like this feeling. and it didn't even taste like dr pepper.

i watched "mad detective" and johnnie to and wai ka-fai. i like this duo of directors. they usually make great movies together. but when johnnie to makes movies by himself, they are just okay. so i'm glad wai ka-fai worked on this one. it's about a schizophrenic detective that is trying to solve a case about murder. and it's really interesting. they really made the movie like stepping into an insane mind. the guy apparently can see people's personalities so there's like a collective bunch of personalities for each person. one guy had 7 personalities, so they had to use 8 actors for him. well, it was a nice mystery, but it didn't really have anything logical to solve the case. it was just his crazy mind thinking of crazy things and it turned out to be right. and i guess there's some analysis of human personalities and psychology and stuff. but that isn't logical. still good though.

i am still drinking my morning tea right now. it's almost 11. woke up at 8 and i'm still drinking. i just keep refilling hot water and the water still seems to turn brown. so there must be tea. when i drink tea, i urinate a lot. that's because caffeine is a diuretic. and i guess because i'm drinking water, so i need to balance my body and get rid of the excess. so i was wondering if the diuretic effect of caffeine is enough to dehydrate me. tea is in water, so the diuretic effect should be balanced out by the water replacement. assuming a person is already at water equilibrium, i wonder what concentration of caffeine is required to remove water. maybe the caffeine's diuretic effect can only remove up to the excess water in the tea. so net loss is zero. or is it possible to drink tea and become dehydrated. i don't know. it would be a good experiment to attempt. of course, kidney clearance would have to be adjusted for. age. and tea type. and a lot of variables.

after working in a pharmacy for almost a year, i have seen a lot of people pay by debit card. every time they pay, they have to put in a pin number ([personal identification number number]sorry, redundant acronym syndrome. RAS syndrome.) well, i have seen a lot of numbers (not intentionally of course) and many are similar (some are the same as mine!). i always wanted to record all the ones i see and run some simple statistical tests about which numbers are more common. and also map them out on a number pad and see how position effects the choices of these important numbers. but that would involve me intentionally seeing people's pin. and that is probably illegal. hm.

the last movie i watched was the terrorizers by edward yang. and i didn't really get it. i like yiyi very much and confucian confusion was great. but the terrorizers. eh. it was okay. this was a stream of consciousness through a few couples. one is a photographer with his smart girlfriend or something. the other is a doctor that is trying to get a promotion and his wife is trying to write a story, but it fails miserably and she starts having an affair. the last pair is a criminal girl and some guy. well, they all kind of connect. but it was kind of messy. at least in yiyi, i felt there was a direction. this is eh. but the taiwan tv company or whatever really did a great job on the remaster. so beautiful. too bad the sound sucks and there is a glitch. sigh. maybe i'll get it later.

this is a really cool picture in the movie. so artistic oh my.

today the pharmacist i worked with taught me a lot about zolpidem (ambien). she asked me if i knew the side effects of ambien. i didn't really know. just drowsiness, i guess. since it's a sleep aid. well, apparently it also causes sleep walking and sleep do-weird-things-ing. like people will sleep cook and they will wake up and not know. or they will go driving while sleeping. and they won't know. well, one patient told her about his wife taking ambien and then going off to have sex in the middle of the night. she was doing a lot of weird sexual activities and all that great stuff. and how he was helping her or something. it was very odd. but important to know.

i can't believe it sold out.

(drove all the way to san francisco to find out the boris concert was sold out. had delicious beef curry pasta at japantown instead. longest trip for dinner ever. had to pay toll to cross the bay bridge also. and 11 minutes of parking, which was the time it took to walk to the venue and be sad and walk back.)

i watched tokyo story by yasujiro ozu. it is supposedly ozu's masterpiece, so i decided it was good to watch. i've never seen an ozu movie before, but i kind of knew what to expect because i see a lot of films state they are influenced by him. ozu was one of those old directors that were part of the transition out of the silent films, so its interesting to see how movies changed after people started being able to talk. the film has this weird placement of cameras really close to the ground, about a foot or two up, and the camera just sits there and watches people. when two people are having a conversation the camera will directly face the person talking, so it feels like you're stuck right in the middle of the conversation. and the camera doesn't move. well, it moves once in the movie.

the movie is about an old couple that go to tokyo to visit their children. however, it turns out their children are busy with their jobs, families, and lives, so they can't really do much with their parents. the children eventually just pool together some money and send their parents to some hot springs. after that, the couple decide that they should just go back home. however, on their way home the wife becomes sick and eventually dies. all the children come for the mourning, but they are soon leaving on the express train back to tokyo. so the story is basically about generational conflicts and how times have changed and all that stuff. it's pretty depressing. i didn't know old movies like this would be so sad. but then again, this is post-war japan, so i guess there were a lot of things to be depressed about.

i woke up at 4:30, and couldn't really sleep. i ended up not doing anything after i got up either. just sat here and drank tea. watched downloads go by. and by downloads, i don't mean illegal downloaded whatevers. what i mean by downloads is time. it is almost sunrise. the sky is kind of dark blue now. the moon looks really orange. let me see if i can get a picture of it. it's like a full circle and kind of orange.

there we go.

it is orange.
i am eating a peach now.
this tea bag lasts quite a long time.
third cup of tea now.

yesterday, my computer was acting up and being annoying. i was very sad. my friend had a very good observation that i get sick along with my computer. kind of like how one person's mood can affect another in a relationship. well, today i reformatted my computer and now it is being very kind and friendly. so i had a pretty good day. smile smile. too bad i can't just reformat associations with people. only programs associated with files.