unpurposed

sometimes people just confuse me. today i was looking at the elissa memorial. apparently, she was more well-liked when compared to the other people that died. then i see someone had made some rememberelissa.org. why? it confuses me. wont having a complete site dedicated to her death just remind everyone of her? no matter what the people do, she wont come back. so wont all the dedication and memorial stuff just bring bad memories and make this world an even sadder place?

eh.

sorry to those i may have offended.

yay. i broke 1000 fluid ounces of dr pepper today. its time to celebrate by buying another 1000 fluid ounces! yay.

star9 testing makes me sick. literally. i think im dying from another attack of disease. little bacteria attacking away at me. im going to fall apart. my heart is going to stand still. the little bacteria will conquer my body and be happy. they will have a celebration.

eisbrecher is a cool band. megaherz is cool. and so is rammstein.

hey (your name here), i wrote a song for you.

it was called yellow.

in german, angst means fear. weird.

today was interesting. STAR 9 testing. science questions didn't even have science. if you want to build a house, who do you call?. hm. taxi driver. first period i had nothing to do. i went online. i found a cool website about ways to commit suicide.. but then its kind of inappropriate to post it after suicide. sorry. sad. oh well.

My will. your court

Dark and gloomy the face

My lie in your gaze

You come with sorrow

and I'm not coming back

sometimes i wonder if life is real. what if everyone is in a coma and dreams forever. what if someone lives their whole life and then realizes it was just a dream. what a disappointment. or what if someone is having the happiest time of their life ever, and then they wake up. like what happens in most dreams. and then some things in life just happen to make no sense at all. they only seem like things that would happen in dreams. life is a dream.

when a person dies, who do people mourn for? do they mourn for the person that died? that person is dead. they are gone and nothing can undo it. a person is only really mourning for themselves. they are the one that is sad they will never see the dead person again. they are sad that they can never talk or enjoy life with that person again. so.. cheer up. life continues. until death. then accept it.

my addition to this post is that im sorry that it is blunt. but that is my writing style and i meant it in a good way. so dont hate me because of this post, please.

hacked and slashed is what happened to my hair today. apparently, i had so much hair that the barber had to cut my hair in layers. and then she said if it was longer then she would have charged double. bah. long hair to short hair in 20 minutes. its so nice and airy. and swimming will be easier. but i feel sad. my hair is gone.

i added a new reality sucks.

why do the news trucks stay in front of our school for the whole day without doing anything? they just sit there and do nothing. its annoying. just because some girl tried to commit suicide failed and some alumni was killed in iraq after giving up a multimillion career in football. bah. so the news trucks have to come and sit in front of the school. whole day. still sitting there now. annoying. leland is going to be a famous school. bad year.

i know i have not updated anything on this site for a long time. i just dont feel like it. i dont feel like it because in 29 days now, everything will be deleted and i will want to find a new server. then i have to upload. so i dont want to make anything. i dont want to make a movie because as you can see, it will take time to make a page two. and i have another layoutish thing that some have seen. there are many unfinished flashes that i have started. but never completed because they are too.. dull. i get sparks of ideas, then like sparks, they just die off because they cant start a fire. so in my fire analogy, no sparks have ever made it to the pine needles to be burnt up and start a massive conflagration of destruction. because ideas aren't easy to think of. and my mind is dull. i think i have hit the max of all ideas, so no more movies will be good after now. i declare this. and to celebrate, i show you a new collection series thing of mine. i call it reality sucks. for no apparent reason. i got this idea from explodingdog.com and i was drawing on a photo and eventually did it for a few of them. so now, just for amusement, i release these low effort drawings in the place of any other sort of movie update.

my hair is long. it blinds me now, when i swim. hair swings everywhere. its evil. but its cool. hair is cool. im now a nonconformist. with my nonconforming longer hair, i can do so many random things to my hair. i can let it tangle up for the hell of it because its so hard to make free of knots, and eventually ill have dreadlocks! uneven dreadlocks! or i could spike it, and they will be like a foot high!. or i can just cut it. but i dont want to.

how to dress emo

its a hilarious site. black converses!!!

"Before you worry about how you are going to change how you act in "real life", you must change your "internet life" first. Erase your PunkPrincess182 screen name and change it to something a bit sadder. Such as xsadxstarx. If you need help, a handy emo screen name generator can be found here.

With your emo screen name in place, you must type emo. Example:

this.is.an.example.of.typing.emo..this.kind.is.mostly.used.on.websites. &we; cant forget about this kind. &thiskindwhichisannoyingasfucktoread.; tYpInG LiKe ThIs iS nOt TyPiNg eMo. That's just typing retarded."

according to that emo generator, my name is dismal for sorrow.