unpurposed

i just watched the 20 minutes bonus material on the dvd for edward yang's "the terrorizers". it has a lot of the people he worked with, but not edward yang himself. i guess that's because he's dead. wu nien-jen was talking through a lot of the part. and wowow he explained the movie so clearly! i wish the movie could have been this straightforward when i watched it. now i guess i see the beauty in this movie. too bad it took one of taiwan's famous scriptwriters to understand and explain edward yang. hm, there was a funny story that nien-jen told. edward yang randomly asked nien-jen, "what language do you think of your scripts in? all your scripts are so clear, mine are so messy." nien-jen was like wtf thats the first time i ever thought about it but he replies, "i guess chinese or taiwanese." "fuck, i use english." but man, these people are artists. they completely think in an odd way.

whenever i use bittorrent, i always think of population dynamics and all that crazy stuff. when to start downloading to maximize or minimize upload. also depends on what the initial seeder's speed is and all that. it's really fascinating. i can think of hours and hours tweaking my strategy to meet my goals. it's a big waste of time.

the cool breeze is so refreshing. a break from the heat. sweat makes things sticky. sitting while wet is not comfortable for the bottom. the top is still spinning. are we in a dream? i spend 1/3 of my life sleeping. the other 2/3 of my life are spent dreaming. the pharmacist told me that she met one of my classmates. too bad i didn't know who she was. but the pharmacist said she knew me. do i have a stalker? how flattering. well, i searched the name on facebook, no profile picture displayed. looked her name up in the photo directory. i've seen this person before, but i never talked in my life. what can i do? i should really sleep more. only like 6 hours a day. i'm not tired at night. but so tired in the morning. but i guess that count doesn't include sleeping in class. i have weird periods of time during class where i am falling in and out of sleep. that makes sleep sound like a hole. or a ring. since falling is from downwards gravitation. so to go in, it should be a hole. then to fall out of a dream, it must have a exit on the bottom. so i guess it is a long tube. we keep falling, until we hit another tunnel of sleep. i guess that's kinetic energy. eventually boom. hit the ground. create a crater and can't fall out of that. goodnight

in commemoration of satoshi kon's death, i decided to pirate one of his movies. by pirate, i mean watch the movie through a telescope with a parrot on my shoulder. the movie was "perfect blue." and it was alright. satoshi kon likes to blend reality and imagination and dreams and fake worlds and insanity. and i guess he did a great job with that. as the movie went on, i knew less and less which was reality. is that a good thing? or a bad thing? it's about a pop singer who decides to quit and become an actress and weird things happen. her consciousness is acted out. dreams are acted out. acting is acted out. and in the end, everything clears up, i guess. it's basically inception but more parallel and not as dumbed down for american audiences. i liked satoshi kon's paprika movie better though. this was an early movie, so i guess he was still getting used to his fantasy style. too bad he won't make anymore movies. not that i like to watch anime all that much.

i wish i knew.

it's so hot i can't sleep. i guess i will try again soon. i have a strong suspicion that it's the coffee i had at some organization dinner. i usually don't drink coffee, but the dinner was at some high class place, so i decided to try some and pretend to be high class with coffee and cake dessert or whatever. and the dinner was expensive, so i had to get as much as i could. like the pita bread + olive oil and vinegar stuff. who thought of eating bread like that. makes things so oily.

so the chinese people are getting of the family name "shan" because computers can't type it. it's a rare character apparently, so they are changing it to "xian". they could have just waited for unicode to add the character and computers to type it. instead they are just making chinese even more simple! harmonizing characters. the chinese are funny. i hope they simplify chinese more, so i can actually read it quicker. it's hard learning thousands of characters. hopefully the people's republic of china can eventually cut it down to a few hundred. deletion is the best simplification.

wordpress has been telling me version 3.0.1 is available for many weeks now. i'm using 2.9.1. such a huge difference. but i don't want to upgrade. because all i do is blog. i don't even use tags or comments or anything. they make all these updates and fancy things. if i update, it just takes up space and possibly screws up things. i like old versions. i was using utorrent for perfectly legitimate uses and suddenly there was an upgrade. so i upgraded. turns out there was a bug so one website i used actually banned that new version. i had to downgrade back to my original old version and then a torrent that i was running originally suddenly stopped working. ugh.

The Weepies - Be My Thrill

Be my thrill, my little white pill, my unpaid bill, the one who will
Be my love, my little grey dove, my push and my shove, my heaven above

And we tumble down like Jack and Jill, and I miss all of the joy you kill
But I love you still, be my thrill

Be my one, my day in the sun, my little pop gun, the best thing I've done
Be my what, my open and shut, my everything but, my little hot slut

And we tumble down like Jack and Jill, and I miss all of the joy you kill
But I love you still, be my thrill

And every morning is like the one before
And everybody needs someone to adore
I'm counting on you
Oh baby say you will
Oh baby be my thrill

Be my youth, my kissing booth, my little sweet tooth, my beauty and truth
Be my thrill, my little white pill, my wait up until, the one who will

And we tumble down like Jack and Jill, and I miss all of the joy you kill
But I love you still, be my thrill

And we tumble down like Jack and Jill, and I miss all of the joy you kill
But I love you still, be my thrill

Yeah I love you still, be my thrill

you'd think that after writing a blog for 8 years, i would be great at expressing myself. unfortunately i think it just made me worse.

unrelated.
one thing you want to say to one person right now:
1. you are good. do not worry about that.

unrelated.
i just did electroporation on four samples. turns out i only have 2 LB plates. and i need 2 LB plates for each sample. it's better to plan ahead of time.

unrelated.
sometimes they use a thiazide diuretic to treat diabetes insipidis (a disease where you pee too much.) it's weird that a drug that makes you pee can stop making you pee. but the mechanism for that happening is quite beautiful.

unrelated.
pretzels. they taste good. dry mouth though. xerostomia.

unrelated.
h1n1 vaccine linked to narcolepsy (but not really proven, just case studies). too bad h1n1 vaccine is included in all the flu vaccines this year. we're going to have a lot of people falling asleep randomly now. along with all the autism people claim flu vaccines cause.

unrelated edit.
turns out i only have 1 LB plate. apparently one was already growing some black-colored organism. contamination is amazing. a good hardy specimen. able to grow in 4 degrees C. able to grow in the presence of ampicillin. very strong indeed. off to the trash you go.