unpurposed

i walked out the door today to go take a final, and i see these chalk drawings outside my door.

multiple choice tests say to pick the best answer. if there are two correct answers, just choose the one that better answers the question. but if all the questions are wrong, are you supposed to choose the one that is least wrong? or do you choose the one that doesn't answer the question best?

i had a dream about the folder system of a blu ray disc. i don't know why...

ANY!
BDMV
-----AUXDATA
-----BACKUP
----------------------AUXDATA
----------------------BDJO
----------------------CLIPINF
----------------------JAR
----------------------META
----------------------PLAYLIST
-----BDJO
-----CLIPINF
-----JAR
-----META
-----PLAYLIST
-----STREAM
CERTIFICATE
-----BACKUP

in elementary school i played a game where my friend and i would go around stomping on bees in the field. there were a lot of bees at that time (they seem to be gone now.) and the bees always seemed to like flying low to the ground making them great targets. we would sneak up, step on the bee, and rotate our feet with great force, to make sure the bees were properly disposed of. well, during some welcoming event for middle school, i got stung by a yellow jacket. i guess the bee cousins got me for my evil deeds.

i think this is a funny picture. it's from one of the slides talking about current research for migraine medications. what is hilarious is that first bar of placebo (mk-0974). it's amazing that a placebo can give almost 50% of people pain relief, while rizatriptan, one of the medications that's actually on the market, only makes efficiency about 70%. and if 50% of migraines can be fixed by a placebo, does that mean that migraines are 50% of the time psychological? i don't really know how to interpret that. but it's shockingly high for something that supposedly doesn't have any physiological effect. unless placebos are usually that high, and we have become a society that creates our own diseases so we can satisfy our pill-popping obsession. hiv and cancer are really psychological. just take a sugar pill.

In 1990, at the request of the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA), the brand name Losec was changed to Prilosec to avoid confusion with the diuretic Lasix (furosemide). Unfortunately, the new name has led to confusion between omeprazole (Prilosec) and fluoxetine (Prozac), an antidepressant.

i must be really cynical because it is even affecting me in my sleep. i had some dreams last night and it was kind of interesting. but then my dream self thought to myself "oh, i'll probably wake up anytime soon now." and sure enough, my alarm went off and i woke up.

once upon a time, there was a pencil. all the other writing utensils laughed at him. the ball point pen, the fountain pen, the marker all mocked his short-lived impressions. the erasers would follow him, wherever he went, and erase his trail. poor pencil. oh, how he longed to have some permanence like the pens. he wished others would notice that he had once been there. all he wanted was to leave some lasting influence or impact on his world. yet, no matter how hard he pressed on the paper, his scribbles were always reduced to mere scratches.

one day pencil could not suffer through the failure anymore and rolled off the desk. the impact on the cold, hard floor snapped pencil in half and from that day on, pencil became a pen.

at the hospital i was at, there was a 33 year old patient that had been in the hospital for over 6 months. he was an alcoholic and drank until his pancreas failed and fell apart. each day in the hospital costs like $2000, so i wonder who is going to pay for that after he is discharged. i really doubt he will be able to take the cost on himself. will the hospital eat the cost? i doubt it. who will pay?

schizophrenia is because of too much dopamine. parkinson's is because of too little dopamine. it's funny because the medications for schizophrenia, if too much, can cause parkinson's symptoms. and too much parkinson's medications can cause psychiatric disturbances. so i guess the opposite of mental illness is a movement disorder. so dopamine is the thing that connects the ideas, perceptions, thoughts to the physical. what a lucky chemical. and it's just made from an ordinary tyrosine amino acid.